Summer has started (2015)

I have always viewed summer (while growing up back home) as those days when things are going to be uncomfortably hot that it insists you go and take a dip in the sea (I never listened, lol). I never actually listened because: first, we just can’t go and take a dip in the sea whenever we wanted to (even if we were a coastal city) and second, because our favorite place to take a dip was actually quite far from the city (around an hour’s ride, or so, during those days when the road wasn’t all cemented yet). Yes, reasons. lol.

But now that I am older (waaaaaayyy older!), I have come to realize that you are always responsible for your actions, but there will always be someone or something that will greatly influence your final decision. I dunno, it could be your husband, your kid, or even your pet! But the final decision will always be mine. So blaming others for our predicament is not good…unless you were in a coma or something, and they had to make the decisions themselves. ;P

I am straying from my original topic, though. It is already summer. Getting hot, but am thankful for our air conditioner. I would love to go on a vacation somewhere, though. Going back home would be the ultimate vacation for me (not just because someone else is going to do the cooking and stuffs, lol), and my kids. We all love it there!

In reality, no definite plans yet. My eldest wants to start training for summer immediately, and that means the youngest and I can’t leave, too. I know, decision is always mine. I just wish I wouldn’t sound and look too selfish if I do decide to take the youngest and we both take our vacation ourselves.

Anyway, I must always stay positive. There is always a better option. And there are always places here in the city that the youngest and I can go to! ;)

On Winding Down

I don’t think you have to be a romantic to enjoy scented candles. I like a room that smells heavenly and it does make me sleep much better! One of those candles (with brands such as diptyque), came highly recommended by an online friend. She is a highly stressed person (kids and a job) and so when she said that scented candles did quite an amazing job of getting her to unwind after each hectic day, I immediately believed her. Of course, I needed to do a research about scented candles; plus know how to place them safely around the house, too, since I have a very curious 6-year old child!

But now that summer has already started for my 6-year old (I was quite happy to learn that March14 was the start of their summer vacation!), things are a bit winding down. More hours to “laze around. Actually, the right term there is “procrastinate”. LOL.

But am happy to be procrastinating every once in a while; just lying down, watching a good movie, while the room is being filled with such lovely and heavenly scents… ;P

Back To Normal

Things are more or less back to normal here at home. For me, anyway. I am still looking for a free phone app that will let me post from my phone to here … any suggestions? It will be much appreciated! :)

A couple of days ago I noticed our “house cat” (actually, we don’t own him; he just comes and goes as he like. we always have food and water for him here at home) was acting kind of strange. He was all jittery and looks so suspicious of anyone coming to pet him. Then I noticed some dried blood on his left side! That’s when I found out that he has been shot again. Yes, again.

The first time was really terrible for us, and I wasn’t sure if he would live. I couldn’t operate on him myself (no practice, and no equipment!) and bringing him to a friend’s clinic might prove to be more harmful to him (he has never been caged and is so distrustful of other people). Anyway, I gave him antibiotics, and it was a good thing he responded well. And now it’s happened again!

Though he doesn’t seem to be totally affected, I still don’t like the idea of him going out and be shot again. Plus, I really hope that people who do this to animals will come to their senses – it’s not doing anyone any good! The stray cat population in our area has drastically lessened, and am sure it’s because of the “cat shooter”.

Anyway, that is part of life. For “our” cat, it is always a risk every time he goes out. Hopefully, he too will come to his senses and realize that he doesn’t need to go far to find a home. We’ll always be here for him. :)

MIA – That’s me

It has been ages since I’ve been here. Internet connection has been crappy lately and my computer’s so unreliable! Need to have this fixed. I wish I know a way how to post from my phone … been looking around, but haven’t found that app yet!

Things haven’t been so great lately, though. My mom passed away (honestly, I didn’t expect it) and I still haven’t gotten round to totally accepting it yet. Knowing that she won’t be back home this Christmas … it seems pretty weird. Well, we normally don’t go home during the Christmas break (because it’s only two weeks) but usually during summer vacation (more than a month) we go home. We – meaning, my sons and I. Sometimes hubby tags along, but he can’t stay long because of work.

We all miss her. I wish she was still here. But that’s just not possible. I think it’s time she go where she really wants to go.

Funny thing … while in the hospital, Manang Lydia (who was with her at that time) heard Mama say (with her eyes closed),”Don’t leave me.” The only other people inside the room were two grandchildren, and Papa. Manag Lydia said,”We didn’t leave you.” Mama replied (with her eyes still closed), “You all left me just recently.”

Dealing with the loss of a loved one is hard. For me, anyway. I know she waited for me to arrive before leaving us. We – my sons and I – couldn’t just leave because of school. ¬†We arrived on a Friday (decided to let the kids skip school on Friday) and she left us on Saturday. The thought still leaves a sharp ache in my chest (I hope this isn’t serious!) … puny attempt at being funny here. :-/

She wanted to be cremated, but there was no such facility being offered in our province. Interment was scheduled the next day after she left us. You know, I just couldn’t bring myself to say “died/dead”. I mean, her spirit is still around, am sure. So, it’s only her body that’s stopped functioning … she just “left”. ¬†Getting weird and crazy here. LOL

Anyway, before my computer conks out … better sign off. For now. :)

Mama

Shot taken from my niece’s recent post on Facebook